See the title of this post? I am absolutely AWEFUL at doing this.
Living in the moment. It sounds like some motovational quote, I know. But hang in here with me.
Ever since I was little I've a had a.......um....tradition. Every birthday, after the presents have been opened, cakes been eaten, and I'm snuggled up in my bed, I cry.
Now don't get me wrong, I have wonderful birthdays. And I live in a very happy home. But, every year without fail, I shed a few tears. Yes, this could be due to the fact that I'm practically a walking fountain and could probably talk myself into tears over anything, but it also has something to do with the title of this post.
I can remember being a ten year old girl, crying in to my pillow because I'd "never be nine again."
Guys, I have always been aweful at living in the moment. I resist change with all of my being, and if time could be paused I'd probably still be a six year old girl. I find it really really hard to leave behind a year full of memories, moments, smiles and special times. I guess its called letting go. Which translates for me as, "prying my fingers loose one by one until its gone forever." So while birthdays are exciting and fun, they're also a little sad. Because it means I'm growing up. And I'm not sure if I want to do that just yet.
But here's another thing I struggle with. Racing forward into the future. Its like I'm standing on one of those wobbaly things at the playground and just can't get the right balance. One minute Im crying over another year gone, and the next I'm wishing time would hurry up already.
I know what you're thinking. I am one mixed up person.
But I'm trying. Trying to stop holding onto the past, and stop racing for the future. Trying to live in the moment, and not miss what I've got right now because my minds thinking up a life for the 25 year old me. Trying to simply enjoy eacfh day for what it is. Because guys, God's got the next 10 years. Gosh, he's got the next 100. And really, if I think about, I don't want to stay forever a little girl. Because little girls miss out on A LOT of life.
So here's my 10 cents worth. Don't live in the past and don't spend your days in the future. Reality is that the past is probably not as wonderful as you remember it to be, and the future will probably be way different than what you're busy dreaming up. Live in the right now, with people who are also living in the right now, and a God who is busy blessing you in the right now.
This moment has a lot to offer you. Learn to live in it. :)
Love Gracie
Living in the moment. It sounds like some motovational quote, I know. But hang in here with me.
Ever since I was little I've a had a.......um....tradition. Every birthday, after the presents have been opened, cakes been eaten, and I'm snuggled up in my bed, I cry.
Now don't get me wrong, I have wonderful birthdays. And I live in a very happy home. But, every year without fail, I shed a few tears. Yes, this could be due to the fact that I'm practically a walking fountain and could probably talk myself into tears over anything, but it also has something to do with the title of this post.
I can remember being a ten year old girl, crying in to my pillow because I'd "never be nine again."
Guys, I have always been aweful at living in the moment. I resist change with all of my being, and if time could be paused I'd probably still be a six year old girl. I find it really really hard to leave behind a year full of memories, moments, smiles and special times. I guess its called letting go. Which translates for me as, "prying my fingers loose one by one until its gone forever." So while birthdays are exciting and fun, they're also a little sad. Because it means I'm growing up. And I'm not sure if I want to do that just yet.
But here's another thing I struggle with. Racing forward into the future. Its like I'm standing on one of those wobbaly things at the playground and just can't get the right balance. One minute Im crying over another year gone, and the next I'm wishing time would hurry up already.
I know what you're thinking. I am one mixed up person.
But I'm trying. Trying to stop holding onto the past, and stop racing for the future. Trying to live in the moment, and not miss what I've got right now because my minds thinking up a life for the 25 year old me. Trying to simply enjoy eacfh day for what it is. Because guys, God's got the next 10 years. Gosh, he's got the next 100. And really, if I think about, I don't want to stay forever a little girl. Because little girls miss out on A LOT of life.
So here's my 10 cents worth. Don't live in the past and don't spend your days in the future. Reality is that the past is probably not as wonderful as you remember it to be, and the future will probably be way different than what you're busy dreaming up. Live in the right now, with people who are also living in the right now, and a God who is busy blessing you in the right now.
This moment has a lot to offer you. Learn to live in it. :)
Love Gracie
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